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thank you so much though for letting me know you care looking at my face <3 <3 <3
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Once he said to her: “You are like me; you are different from other people. You are Kamala and no one else, and within you there is a stillness and sanctuary to which you can retreat at any time and be yourself, just as I can. Few people have that capacity and yet everyone could have it…. Most people, Kamala, are like a falling leaf that drifts and turns into the air, flutters, and falls to the ground. But a few others are like stars which travel one defined path: no wind reaches them, they have within themselves a guide and path.
Siddhartha was silent, and they played the game of love, one of the thirty or forty different games which Kamala knew. Her body was as supple as a jaguar and a hunter’s bow; whoever learned about love from her, learned many pleasures, many secrets. She played with Siddhartha a long time, repulsed him, overwhelmed him, conquered him, rejoiced at her mastery, until he was overcome and lay exhausted at her side.
The courtesan bent over him and looked long at his faced, into his eyes that had grown tired.
"You are the best lover that I have had," she said thoughtfully. "You are stronger than others, more supple, more willing. You have learned my art well, Siddhartha. Some day, when I am older, I will have a child by you. And yet, my dear, you have remained a Samana. You do not really love me—you love nobody. Is that not true?"
"Maybe," said Siddhartha wearily. "I am like you. You cannot love either, otherwise how could you practice love as an art? Perhaps people like us cannot love. Ordinary people can—that is their secret."
Not as pretty as your soul :)
A wise photographer once told me, “Just sweat. Move and sweat for at least 30 minutes per day. Whether it’s running, yoga-ing or swimming… If you just do that, in no time you will look how you want to look.” I believe that wholeheartedly.
I bought P90X with a vision in my head and right now the stack of DVDs is sitting in the corner of my room encapsulated with dust and aggravated motivation. I tried to play one DVD a day (it’s looking more like one DVD per year now).
And it’s not even just working out. Having a healthy diet is 80% of it all. Eat healthy. We’re supposed to be eating every 3 hours, snacking between meals with protein bars, salads, etc. Do not eat pork. I know, bacon tastes like heaven. Also never ever ever ever ever eat trans fat. You can find trans fat in prepackaged sweets like those LOVES mini donuts. Read the nutrition fact labels. Know what you’re putting into your body.
Find healthy alternatives. If you’re craving potato chips, eat kale instead. There’s this great article out there that shows you healthy alternatives to what you’re craving, I’m sure if you do a quick search you could find it. Eat your nuts and grains. Choose brown rice or quinoa over white rice.
I haven’t been practicing this at all lately and I can definitely see it take a toll on my body. Literally these past 6 months I have been extremely busy and stressed, I am stress eating like crazy. I have no workout plan, no “diet.” I’m in the most unhealthiest form I have ever been. I’m gaining insane weight and acne. I’m depressed literally all the time. And what’s even worse is that I KNOW if I just work out everyday I will feel good and better about myself with decreased amount of stress. Endorphins like seratonin gets released when you workout.
So go out and do a hike, be out in nature. Go swimming, try kayaking—something that you’ve always wanted to do. Walk past that McDonalds thinking, “I am better than you” because you are. Try it out. I’ll do it with you.